Wednesday, March 01, 2006


I need love...
I'm not saying that people don't love me enough, that's not my problem. My problem is loving others. Lately I have been loving others conditionally, this is wrong.

I realized this today in class. My very liberal New Testament class where my teacher believes that there isn't enough evidence to prove that Jesus existed. I spoke out, but I spoke out in my flesh. I was angry, frustrated that someone could be so stupid.

God's not gonna use that.

I'm looking back now and realizing that I'm not as strong as I think I am. I love God and want to defend Him, but I tend to knock others down as I do it. That's not the right way. I care more about changing people's minds, rather than letting God change their hearts.

I want to love others, but only if they LOVE God like I do. But GOD is AGAPE. And I am not.

So pray for me, but also think to yourselves, are you loving others?
Is your love based on the fact that you want other people to love you back, or do things for you? Do you LOVE God enough to want to LOVE others like He LOVES them?

As you can see I have not been updating much. I'm struggling right now with some things, I need God's LOVE more than ever. I am strong, I am not the kind of person that can just walk away from something. I am the kind of person that gets pulled into things slowly as things go wrong, and I DON'T want to go that way...

In Christ,


Blogger Steve said...

God does love you so much. We, as humans, have no idea just how much He does Love us.
Hang in there and know you are in my prayers!

2:46 PM  
Blogger wil said...

Honest words ~ good stuff; keep it up & I'll pray 4 u.

Wil /

10:38 PM  

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